Something Heavenly

This song has played over and over again in my head for months now...and recently I guess that you could say it's become more and more relevant to my life.  With all of the changes going on, not only physically and emotionally, but also changes in my/our priorities, expectations, plans, hopes and dreams, these lyrics have really been heavy, in a good, self-examining way, on my heart.  This whole growing-another-life thing is just too amazing and too over our heads for it to happen on it's own.  God has truly become an overwhelming and unmistakable presence in my life.  Jon doesn't agree with me when I say that we are lucky, for any reason...he say that we are blessed.  Blessed is exactly what we are.  I am so blessed that God has chosen to give me this little life to grow and protect.  This is something that I have wanted for so long, knowing perfectly well that I'd have no idea what I'm doing....and I am blessed and thankful for all of the chaos going on inside of me, and also for the peace in knowing that He already knows this baby and everything that he or she will be.  "It's hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I'm giving in to something heavenly."

Whatever You're Doing - Sanctus Real
It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender


(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly


Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...


(Chorus)


Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears


Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly


Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly


It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

Even with all of the unknowns I still have an overwhelming sense of peace.  I can't say that I've given all of my worries to God, but I am comforted in knowing that He shares in them with me.